Pandemic Poem a Day, Day Five

 

FAMILY REUNION AND THE PANDEMIC

 

December, before she died on Christmas Eve,

my cousin Nancy called Sally and me  

to promise the Kendig Reunion would still

happen on the Fourth of July as it has

for decades. Yes of course, of course. 

By the first of June, we were stricken

off course, two balls hit into a bog.

The promise and the plague. And us, sinking.

We took the penalty and put off play

till Labor Day. We no longer labor

with that metaphor, now plan to punt.

Pandemic Poem a Day, Day Four

 

CAREENING THROUGH SOCIAL MEDIA

 

I’m SkypingFace-TimingWhat’s Apping.

Soon: Zoom, with twenty-four squares.

At a poetry reading of one hundred,

I page through screens to find friends.

The woman in Wales where it’s midnight,

parents in Ohio watching their daughter

in Wyoming present her work, Ted’s siblings

show up (same last name at the bottom). 

Then I sit in a meeting about our new platform

one we stand in front of.                    Zoom

is out,             zooms off.

I wave as though to a departing colleague.

Pandemic Poem a Day, Day 3

AND NOW THIS

 

Denver teachers called back

will be fired if they resist.

They hold a news conference,

make out their wills together.

Photos pop up online of Georgia schools,

already in session, teens swarming the halls,

kindergartners sitting close, no masks. Georgia.

The NFL announces that players who opt out

will receive $350,000 bonuses, but only

if they are high risk. If they are low risk,

they get $150,000. Ja’Wuan James opts out.

Pandemic Poem a Day, Day Two

WALKING DOWN THE STREET

I am stopped by a man who wants to know

if my hat is for Navy. “No, it’s my dad’s

Army Air Corps cap,” I say, hold it at arm’s length

so he sees the B-17. “Is he alive?” he asks.

“No, he died a year ago, age 93.”

The man seems stricken, embarrassed.

“I’m so sorry.”

“Oh, don’t be,” I say. “He ‘lived to be a gray-haired

wonder.’” I don’t say “and not to have lived locked up

separated from his family, waving from windows,

while 2,000 died alone in ‘homes.’”

In echelon, we carry on. 


NOTE: If you are here for the poem and not for how my poetry sausage is ground, your work is done and you can skip this note. But for those interested, here is the background on my writing the poem. 

The title and first seven and a half lines happened just like this, at least in my memory. So did lines 8, 9, and 10. Maybe I should have stopped here, but I was thinking about my dad and how much he loved the songs he learned in the Army Air Corps (which is today's U.S. Air Force). He taught them all to us kids, and I may have been the only eight-year girl who  gleefully sang:

My gal's a corker,
She's a New Yorker,
I buy her everything
To keep her in style.
She wears silk underwear
I wear my G.I. pair,
Hey boys,
That's where my money goes.

That and the "Caissons Go Rolling Along," and our very favorite, now called "The U.S. Air Force Song." Why I looked it up today, I'll never know because I knew it by heart and sang it with my dad all the time. (Sometimes now I sing it to my dog while we walk, and I still end it with "Nothing can stop the Army Air Corps," instead of "Nothing can stop the U.S. Air Force.")

But when I looked it up, I realized there is a fourth verse we never sang. I loved this couplet:

If you'd live to be a grey-haired wonder
Keep the nose out of the blue

and I thought Dad would like being called a "grey-haired wonder" at least as much as being called 93 years old, and I thought about the final line, in echelon, we carry on. Yes, Yes we do.

Pandemic Poem a Day

 I try to devote the first few minutes of the morning to what I call "centering" myself, sort of a poetry devotion. For months I have been reading a poem a day and writing a one-paragraph response or a possible poem prompt. For August, I am trying another exercise, to write a brief poem on life during the current plague. I tend to take days and weeks on a poem, not let it out forever. I am going to brave it and whip these little things out and share them in the moment. Here is the one for day 1, August 11th:


FIVE MONTHS LATER

We arrived home March 11th, feeling

wary, having visited a friend in a halfway

house in Nashville, eaten out on the road--

a meal we didn’t know would be the last

of that, and cancelled our room at a hotel

in chaos for another that was quieter, left 

it early the next morning with carryout coffee.

Then, we stayed in, stayed well, felt lucky,

never knew it would be this long.

And it will be a lot longer.

 


ZOOMING with Youngstown Lit: Poems and Cookies

Months and months ago, Karen Schubert contacted me to give a reading at Youngstown Lit, with a reception afterward! I volunteered to bring my gingersnaps with cream cheese and pumpkin dip. (Recipe thanks to Steve Harrington.)

Then, like so very many events, in-the-flesh readings became impossible. So we discovered Zoom Readings! Which, I have to admit, I am enjoying. I loved Kevin Prufer and Martha Collins' Zoom reading a few weeks back, and Terry Provost and Nicole Robinson's Youngstown Lit reading last month. So I was very ready when Karen asked me to read this week on Zoom. You can join us there or at the Youngstown Lit Facebook site, which will have it live on July 1st at 7:00 p.m. or as a video to view later if you can't make it.

Here is one of the ekphrastic poems I am going to read, "Two Sisters" along with the painting by Spanish artist Maria Blanchard that the poem is based on:
 https://www.ekphrastic.net/ekphrastic/maria-blanchards-two-sisters-by-diane-kendig
 
And to the left is the personal photo the poem refers to.


I am very sorry, however, that I won't be able to serve my gingersnaps and dip. You'll have to get your own. Here:

GINGERSNAPS AND DIP

Ingredients
2 pkgs. (8 oz. each) cream cheese, softened *
1 can (15 oz.) LIBBY'S® 100% Pure Pumpkin
2 cups sifted powdered sugar
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1 teaspoon ground ginger
A big bag or box of gingersnaps


Directions
BEAT cream cheese and pumpkin in large mixer bowl until smooth. Add sugar, cinnamon and ginger; mix thoroughly. Cover; refrigerate for 1 hour.
Set out with gingersnaps (or fruit or what have you).

*Neufchâtel (Low fat cream cheese) can be substituted

SEE YOU IN POETRY!





May 8, 1970 - Kent State did not END on May 4th



I pulled this cup out of my china cabinet this week to make tea. It was one of Mom's pieces which I rescued after she died when my siblings felt that everything of my parents should be sold because "there is nothing of value there." I held onto this and the teapot that was the wedding gift from her maid of honor. 

I felt entitled to it because I had bought it for her at a gift shop in Westerville, Ohio where I went to college. It was my present  for Mother's Day 1970: Lilies of the Valley, for the month of May, when I, her first born was born and when we celebrate Mother's Day, which she loved as much as any holiday because she loved being a mother. 


It was in my suitcase that Friday when I got on the bus to Wooster where she would pick me up and take me home for the weekend of May 8, 1970. 

Riding the Bus: May 8, 1970

 

I had just left class where my professor had shouted,
“If they’d been truckers, the government wouldn’t have touched them.”

Boarding the bus home, I heard a man say, “We need to kill a whole lot more
college kids.” Half an hour later, outside Gambier, three Kenyon guys
got on, laughing as always, moved to the back, sat down facing
the glaring stares, and quieted.

I sat there in the middle, on edge, heading home, a two hour ride,
and Kent State, thirty minutes beyond that.   


DIARY OF A SHELTERED WOMAN



I have been keeping several journals-- a reading journal, a very personal COVID-19 journal, my "centering" journal (early morning response to a poem). But this is what I have summarized from my calendar for public consumption. How one woman spent her days, mostly with one man and one dog. 

DAY 1
I do a live video for the Stark Arts Council, half an hour for which I have spent 10 hours
Paul and me hiking the Towpath Trail at the John Glenn lot
figuring out Facebook Live Video, prepping a lesson on ODES, and creating a blog to provide materials to parents and teachers, KENDIG WRITES WITH KIDS. Plus, hours worrying and deciding what to wear. It goes off pretty well, and from what I can see, two people have seen it, a former student who makes her daughter Maddie write a poem which is pretty good, "Ode to a Puzzle," and an Oberlin grad who hopes she can use the materials later.


DAY 2
I grocery shop like always, like never before. Usually I run to 2-3 places and shop for a week. This time, I went during senior hours (which killed me, spring chicken that I am) at our local grocery store and shopped for two weeks, getting some canned goods and frozen goods I usually don’t buy. I have bought a 5-day supply of soup for Paul and me (separate soups for our separate diets) in case one of us gets sick. That person will shelter in one bedroom and have one of our two bathrooms. And if that person is me, I do NOT want to be at the mercy of Paul’s cooking. Soup. I will live on soup.

Paul and I watch “Virginia and Vita,” which is awful, but it reminds me of a favorite Woolf quote that I can use for the book of poems I am working on: “‘Stay this moment.’ No one ever says this enough.”

CANCELED: My Writers in Residence work with Fifth graders at Our Lady of Peace (OLOP) I feel really bad about this. My two co-operating teachers were terrific.

DAY 4- My Poetry Group, "The 811's," Zooms! It seems so thrilling, reading & responding, seeing our six faces, smaller but closer. Still, we usually treat two poems from each person, but now find we can only get to one poem each. The lag time in speaking really adds up.

The vet is back a second time. I thought, for the second time in a year, that Robbie was on his way out, at age 13, but as he recovers from this bout of what? "being really sick" the vet called it, he is bouncing back and acting almost like a puppy again.

Day 7
Paul and I spend a lot of time noting how much this sheltering in place is just like our usual life: we get up, have breakfast, walk Rob, exercise ourselves (in Sippo! Among animals and lake and trees!), have dinner, watch TV or read, sleep well. Our health is good. Life is so very easy for us-- our retirement checks, small as they are, continue to come in, we can pay our bills, our health is good, oops knock on wood-- that I want to stay mindful of those whose lives were hard before, grow harder now: immigrants, inmates, our friends with hard jobs or jobs that just got harder, our friends (our neighbor) without jobs. I make a list of people living alone and plan to email or call them regularly.

CANCELED: My presentation to the local Unitarian Society! Damn!

DAY 8 – Another Stark Arts Facebook Live video, this one on JOURNALING: NOW IS A GREAT TIME TO BE JOURNALING. I reread a lot of my material on Anne Frank and fill this lesson with emotion-- that dissipates as the first 10 moments go awry, I can’t get onto the FB video platform and can see two Stark Arts people chatting about my incompetence. Ayayayay Canta y no llores. I keep at it, get in, get on, get up, and present my lesson. "Be like Anne Frank and the people of the Netherlands," I say, "whose leader told them that diaries would be important some day. Write about your last day of school, and for lord’s sake, write about toilet paper because NO one is going to understand what that was about."

DAY 9 
Cancelled: Day 4 of OLOP and a proposal for a literary festival that is itself cancelled.

DAY 10
The web blog I curate for the Cuyahoga County Public Library goes out today, for National Poetry Month, a poem and a prompt a day during April, a job I started in November, handed in on February 1st and is posted at the library's website and sent to subscribers as“Read + Write: 30 Days of Poetry,” a small good thing for local poets and readers as we watch most other literary events cancelled out from under us.



DAY 12
In better news, my weight is holding steady even though I am eating an uncharacteristic three meals a day and making desserts, mostly fruit crisps from the blackberries, blueberries, pineapple, and strawberries I froze all winter when the prices were good. Probably because I continue to walk 3-4 miles a day, feeling the competition from Paul, who runs 7 miles a day. Competition that is nevertheless beyond me.

Day 13
Cancelled: I will not be writing in the window of Appletree Books today. Nor any day in the foreseeable future. Or the unforeseeable future, which is unseeable.

DAY 14
It has now been over three weeks since we returned from a trip to Tennessee, during which time we stayed in three motels and spent several days with a former student living in a halfway house for newly released convicts. Have we picked up anything? We have been mindful as we sheltered, the two of us, not wanting to have carried, to be carrying. Every sniffle-- and this allergy season-- every throat tickle, we worried, but we are pretty sure now we were not crowned with corona, we are not carrying.

DAY 15
My third and final Facebook Live video. This one on Ekphrastic Poety. (“Ekphrastic! It’s Elastic!”) After years of teaching online with a good platform that let me beam PowerPoints and blip to websites for the class to discuss and examine, this being stuck with one screen is hard for me, and ekphrasis was not the best choice as holding art up to the camera is…pathetic. I can hope that the accompanying blog carries me. And I am very grateful to my local arts council for the challenge. The Arts in Education director, Kimberly, is one of the two best I have worked with in 40 years of arts in the schools. (The other was Bob Fox, whom I miss.)

DAY 17
Paul and I debate whether my cleaning help should come, and Paul solves it by saying, “The thing is, she does clean a lot better than you.” Anybody does.

DAY 18
Canceled: My last day of six days as a poet in the schools at OLOP.  I should let go of my grieving over that lost job now, but in the words of Barbara Kingsolver's poem in the Sunday NYT ("How to Survive This")  are apt: "I'm not there yet."

DAY 26
I am invited to zoom with my former Massachusetts group, the Kitchen Table Writers! I haven’t seen most of them for 10 years! I am so excited! But the host forgets to send me the link, and I can’t get in the Zoom room.

In better news, I am invited to read with poets in an anthology of food poems I am in titled Heatthe Grease, We’re Frying Up Some Poetry. And if that book sounds fun, you can imagine the poets! We had a poet from Leeds, England (“He was live at Leeds,” I keep saying) and three women from the Bay area, several from Texas, where the editors (Karen Tardiff and Jennifer Taylor)  are, one from India who signed to read but never made it. Such fun!

DAY 27: Canceled: a classical guitar concert in Cleveland

Day 31
Paul and I Zoom for the second time with three of our former students. I can’t recall when the first time was, but I left the room that day concerned about all of them because of their jobs that left them at risk for contracting the virus or severe depression, but in the second call, I realized how resilient they all have become and always were. SUCH  good conversation. Paul and I also worry a lot bout the Nicaraguan asylum seeker we’ve been friends with for the past 18 months. He has a job out of Ohio now in management of the meat industry, a really really tough one. And then there are the inmates at Grafton and everywhere in Ohio, cut back to two meals a day and insufficient ones at that. K tells me her son reports that supper was 1 hot dog, 1 T. mayonnaise, and ½ c rice. Paul and I are sending what money we can to food banks and inmate and immigrant accounts.

Day 33
Paul's favorite line from the NFL draft going on right now: 

 "I'm the kind of guy who starts what I finish."


DAY 36
"The 811 Poetry Group" meets for the second time and we contemplate how we will go on meeting even after the sheltering order is lifted because the library where we meet-- and thus our name, 811, the Poetry Section of the Dewey Decimal System-- is banning all meetings for the seeable future and beyond to the unforeseeable future. Still, it’s a good session, good poems. I share my poem, “To the Deliverers” which I thought would be quickly publishable but have found that no, despite tens of publications announcing they want Covid-19 poems, my poem is not one of them. (We received 600, Rattle reports in the rejection. But they reported 700 the week before my also-rejected friend notes.)

DAY 38 Canceled: My dentist appointment. Yay!

DAY 39
Gov. Dewine starts a phase out of the shelter in place order but says we should all wear masks (note: within a day, he backed down on that) and we should all stay at home another month. And we say, yay.



Celebrating National Poetry Month

"Oh cripe," I thought this morning. "Here I am two-thirds of the way through National Poetry month, and I have done nothing for National Poetry Month."

 Except I did. In December and January, and truth be known, I started months before that in order to meet my February 1st deadline for "Read + Write: 30 Days of Poetry," a blog whose contents I curate for the Cuyahoga County Public Library. It's here:



https://www.cuyahogalibrary.org/Services/William-N-Skirball-Writers-Center/Poetry/Read-Write-30-Days-of-Poetry.aspx

Seven years ago, I suggested the project to the library's "Writer's Center Specialist," Laurie Kincer. Laurie, an excellent poet in her own right, is a champion of support for writers in our area, and she has done yeowoman's work every year since to make "Read + Write: 30 Days of Poetry" happen every year since. 

Initially, I knew we could easily find 30 excellent poets to feature in Northeast Ohio, but I would never have guessed we could so easily find 30 Northeast Ohio poets every year for seven years, 209 to be exact. (If you do the math, you see I goofed and published one poet twice.) And we are pretty strict in our choice, requiring that poets have published a book or chapbook, not self-published.  (In a few cases, the poet may not have a book but has enough journal publications to be considered for listing in Poets and Writers Directory). Oh, and they have to live in Cuyahoga or a contiguous county (or in a few cases, to at least work there). In one case, the poet no longer lives or works here, but was born and raised here and went on to become the first Poet Laureate of the State. We weren't trying to be exclusive, but we wanted readers to know that this poem-writing activity was going on right here, right now, that all the best poets in the world are not out on Cape Cod or in New York City or sitting on the docks of San Francisco. I will be the first to say that some of my favorite poets are in all those places. But a lot of my fav's are here at home, too.

We started with 400 people signing up right away the first year to receive the poems by email, and by the end of the first year, we had 900. Now, I am told, we have 3,918 readers. And I do mean readers: the library can't tell that the poems are read, but it can get a pretty clear estimate of how many of the emails get opened, and it is a very very high percentage. And the very best part for me is that these readers are not all literary academics and other poets, which is, face it, who a lot of poetry's readership is. I know this because there aren't that many poets and literary academics in Northeast Ohio. But I also know because we get comments on the site and emails in my box from readers who are not all poets and academics. People respond to the poetry prompt that's there by writing and posting their own poems, and they write sweet notes to the poets.

Here are some of them:

I am half Ukrainian. Thank you for sharing, Bill [Arthrell]. My hope, as well.

So many years captured in three short lines.

What an exquisite poem! I love the embedded rhymes. The imagery persists long after we’re done reading, “affixed like/gold dust on/an illuminated/manuscript.”

i am in love all over again, in spite of the pandemic. Thank you friend! Love

"...the fistfights, my ghetto ballet" love this line, love this poem.

This is beautiful, thank you Marcus.

This poem is appropriate for today. Please tell us who does the beautiful art work for us.

Just wow.

What fun to see your poetry on the library website. I love Buzzards. On each rereading, it grows better and better.

This took me back. I'd forgotten how good a pop-sickle could be in summer's heat...and what those neighborhood stores were like. Thank you.

I just love the speech lines through this poem, and the rhythms created by the list of names. So engaging! 

Someone asked where the artwork came from. It's stock, Laurie answered, and in fact, some of the stock images have been great fits. 

We get complaints, too. One person complained that I shouldn't have chosen so many poems about death, given what we are facing now. I didn't argue the point--though I do disagree with it. Instead I pointed out that I had a February 1st deadline and chose these poems in a very different climate. In return, my correspondent sent me a poem she had just written for her grandchildren! An acrostic! I LOVE acrostics! I wrote back. 

Every morning I email the poet of the day to remind them that their poem is up. And I read their poem again. And feel how fortunate I am to be here in Northeast Ohio, the land of great libraries, and surrounded by this great company of poets and this great great company of readers of poetry.